Things that make me sad, that I can’t change.

Sorry if this seems like a negative post. I don’t want my blog to be about complaining! This is just something I want to get off my chest, and hopefully it can be seen in a postive light by raising some awareness.

Imagine if someone granted you with the power to change anything about the world we live in? What one thing would you change?
I strongly admire people who want to make a difference and impact positive change. I want to be one of those people. However, I realised that there are just some things that are out of my control, no matter how much I work to change it. For me that’s (and I hate the term), road kill.

Nothing breaks my heart more than when I’m driving and see an animal that has been hit. In no way do I blame the driver, as more times than not it is simply an accident, and that’s probably the most frustrating thing about it – there is really nothing we can do to change this. Kangaroos jump out of nowhere, wombats come out during the dark, echidnas can be slow moving, the list goes on.
I used to think “why don’t we just put up a fence around all our roads?” Probably not the most well-thought idea.


There is one incident that will always stick with me. My parents were driving me to the train station, and on one of the windy roads there were a few cars that had stopped. A poor kangaroo had been hit (the lady felt so bad and was quite distraught, I felt sorry for her). My dad and I got out the check on the kangaroo, who was still alive. We didn’t know if it was a male or female, I think I was so concerned about the poor thing and didn’t even think to check for a pouch. The kangaroo was shaking from both pain and fear, and it’s back foot had snapped and was only hanging by its skin. My dad got a blanket from the car to cover it with, to help it calm down. It was letting me pat it, and I wished that I had the power to make everything better for the poor thing.
We were told there was nothing we could do about it, and the police came and had to put it down 😦

To this day I still regret not taking the poor thing in. I know you have to be a registered wildlife carer, but I believe after some veterinary care, the kangaroo could have a had a chance, and I could have helped rehabilitate it. I also regret not even thinking to check the pouch.

This incident made me determined to help injured wildlife, and I am hoping to undertake training to become a wildlife carer one day soon.


There are so many things I want to change about the world, such as animal cruelty and disrespect for the planet we live on, which can be done through education and hard work. This however is something that will probably never change.

The only thing we can do is be alert when driving, and check pouches where you can.
As I live in Australia, a lot of the animals I see on the side of the road are marsupials, especially kangaroos and wombats. If you are in a situation when one of these animals has been hit, please check if it is a female – it could be carrying a baby in it’s pouch, and you could save a life.
There is also help you can call, obviously depending on what state/country you live in, which can be found by a simple google search. I’ve linked the information for Victoria below.


On a happier note, here’s a photo of a wallaby I often see grazing on our property 🙂

If you had the power to change one thing about the world, what would it be? Let me know comment section below 🙂

RIP beautiful kangaroo ❤

Jess xx


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Follow your heart – There’s truth in it!

A while back I made a post titled ‘Decisions’ (which you can read here), talking about how it’s okay to change your mind, and the importance of doing what’s right for yourself, and I just wanted to write a little follow up to it 🙂

From ages six to sixteen I had my heart set on being a Vet, and around year 10, I changed my mind. Since finishing high school I have tried everything I was passionate about – teaching, dancing, and literature, but after sometime my heart just wasn’t in it. I thought that I wouldn’t find anything that would make me happy to do as a future career. Growing up I assumed that being a vet was the only career you could have helping animals, until I discovered there were so many more careers.
If you’ve read my other posts, you’ll know that animal welfare is very important to me, so working with animals as a career was always in the back of my mind.

Last year I decided I would make the decision and try to get into studying Zoology, and started by undertaking science units over the summer break to help with my chances. A Bachelor of Science (Zoology) seemed to be the most appropriate course, and I was hoping to get in mid year. My dad then informed me of a new course, commencing at the beginning of the year – a Bachelor of Veterinary and Wildlife Science – one of the career paths being Zoology. I thought there was no harm in simply applying, and giving myself more options. A few days later I was accepted!

It’s funny how things work out, because I am so glad that I’m am in this course now, as it has given me more options than I would have given myself. I can become a Zoologist when I graduate, working in animal conservation, and care and rehabilitation. However, after the 3 years, you can additionally move on to a degree in Veterinary Medicine to become a qualified vet. So I may get to the end of this course and want to continue into the Veterinary side of it, and it’s good to have that option. I would love to be a specialist vet in a zoo..

I feel like I haven’t been this happy in a long time! It sounds cliche, but I finally feel ‘right’. That I’ve chosen the right path, and this is what I was meant to do.
Of course, the course is full on – but I want to put in the hard work, because I’m working towards something that’s important to me.
As well as that, I feel happy at this Uni. I’ve made good friends, who are similar to me, plus the campus is quite small, so I don’t feel overwhelmed.

It has been a long road to get to here. Of course one side of me wishes I pursued this straight after high school, but I have had the chance to try all the things I love doing, and that what was what I wanted at the time. Those decisions have led me to where I am now. I’m thankful for all the experiences I have had that have helped me discover where I want to be in life.

I was scared to change courses once again, that I was just throwing my life away. I felt that I would never find what I wanted to do.
But I wasn’t happy, so I made a change. I cannot stress that enough.. if there is something don’t like – change it! You are in control of your own life, and you need to do what’s best for yourself. It’s taken me a while to accept this, but you need to make decisions based on your happiness, not what you think is the correct thing to do. You may make mistakes, and you may come to realise it wasn’t the right thing, but that was right for you at the time. You will change, and your life will change, and everything will turn out okay in the end. You just have to trust yourself.



I hope this has helped anyone who is in a similar situation as me, let me know in the comments if you like.

I can truly say I am looking forward to what the future holds in terms of a career, and I am so glad I listened to my heart and took a risk.


Uni exams have just finished for the semester, and I finally get a bit of a break! So I’m off to catch up on Attack on Titan season 2, and finish a novel I started reading ages ago!

Jess xx




Ever since I was around six years old, I always knew where I was heading in life, to be a Vet. It wasn’t until I was around sixteen when that clear idea changed and I discovered my other passions. Ever since then, I have changed my mind multiple times as to what I want to be, and furthermore changed what I am studying.
In Grade 6, we wrote in our yearbook about where we would be in ten years time, and I can tell you now this is not where I envisioned myself to be. However, that isn’t always a bad thing.

These past couple of weeks, I’ve had to make one of the hardest decisions I think I’ve faced in my life. The consequences of how I made this decision led my mind to so many questions. What if I regret this choice, but what if I regret not choosing it? Am I throwing away everything? Am I doing this for the right reason? Am I giving up? What if in turn I don’t like this choice either? Am I wasting my life. The thought of all this made me feel physically ill.
This year is my fourth year out of high school, and my decision was to change my study path, so on of top that I was feeling that I was getting ‘too old’ to go back to Uni. I was worried that I couldn’t commit and was wasting my life, and ultimately have no idea what path I was heading.

Even though it was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, I managed to the make the decision, and I feel in my heart it was the right thing for me.
During this process I learnt (or at least tried to remind myself) that you need to do what’s best for yourself, and live life the way that makes you most happy.

I can’t stress enough, if you don’t like something in your life, you are the only person who has the right to change it!
It’s fantastic if you want to try new paths, but don’t discourage yourself if you don’t like what you’ve chosen; that just means you can try something else now. Every choice you make in life will lead you to the place you’re meant to be.
Don’t have your life together by age 25? So what! Most people don’t! Don’t compare yourself to what your friends are doing around you; sometimes we just have to follow a different path to get to where we need to be; focus on your own happiness. You’re a braver person for it.

I think you can really tell if you’ve made the right choice in a difficult situation. Of course, I feel sad about what I’ve let go of, and there is sometimes a sickly feeling in my stomach asking me if I did the right thing. But the weight that has lifted, and calmness I feel out ways that, and I believe that if you’ve made the right decision, you know.

There is nothing wrong with basing your decision on what feels right for you in that moment!
Always remember, you need to base your choice on your happiness, what feels right for you at that time and what’s going to be best for you in the long run.

This may not be the path the twelve year old me had dreamed of, but I’m ready for a new chapter of my life!

Jess xx